Monday, 12 December 2016

Time to review

Not unexpectedly I am having an extended break.  Literally broken haha.

With some time to plan and time to prepare the preparations for me were more about adjusting to new routine, pattern and potentially a new direction.

The time has allowed me to realise there is a reason I draw, a reason I am Petnanny and a reason I design jewellery.

I simply love it.

Not for me a full time artist life, the whimsical hard cut throat business is not for me.  The drawing is a need for me to put pencil to paper and to connect with strangers who tell me of their loved animals asking me to recreate what they say and loved about them.  The jewellery is about speed, leaving things out and learning to shave down to what is necessary.

The dogs well it isn't that simple is it.

I see all the new fresh faces full of drive, trained in social media, business studies and clear path towards a defined goal.  It could be a multifaceted company with employees and raining facilities, larger. bolder, brighter than before.

I revel in their enthusiasm and breath.  Could having no children change my prospective?  I have nothing to leave, no requirement to provide a start for children and subsequent generations.  That doesn't mean I don't want to leave a positive legacy.

For me I want the daily heady contact, training the dogs themselves, sharing moments.  I had no urge to teach people and that hasn't changed.  I miss the ones moved on, miss the ones passed on.  I look forward to their little foibles and funny ways.  I am lucky enough to enjoy that for years and it is valued above all else.

Of course as a business sometimes decisions have to be made a delicate balance between heart driven decisions and sensible head decisions however they aren't often wrong.

I wonder whether destiny chooses whether you are a small fish in a small pond, or a big fish in the sea swimming and thrusting for opportunities. No, I am sure it is the old nature, nurture equation and time reaching what you need to fulfil you.

During my break I have been training hard, always learning and trying to improve.  With all the phenomenal handlers, biologists, ecologists and trainers out there there is always one fundamental thread.

The relationship between you and your dog.

And for me that sums it up, the relationship between me the dog and the dog's family.

So I patiently heal, allow myself whatever time it takes and look forward to getting back to those I know and love.

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